It is often hard for me to feel content. It is something that I have always struggled with and I often find myself feeling as if I am searching or longing for something more than what I already have. It is never in the form of monetary things. More often, I feel as if I am missing some human connection or completeness even in the midst of all this beauty in my life.
It takes slowing down for me to really be able to stop and see how full my life is. I have to quiet my mind and remind myself that I do not need to fill myself up with more of anything. That what I need is already here. I guess it is the human condition and a goal I have is to try to become more mindful in life, especially in this area. I am lucky to have friends who are also trying to be more mindful in their lives and we help each other so much.
As I've said, my gardening experience this year was not perfect. But it was the best it has been yet for me. I am proud of my accomplishments so far and I feel as if I have learned a lot this summer. To garden, you must be patient. Something that is not easy for me (as you can see from our early picked carrots!). To garden, you must revere the earth which I do. To garden, you must fail and try again. You must accept defeat and learn to embrace the bounty when it comes.
Our sunflowers have fallen over and are telling us that it is time to seed. I've not yet done this but we are going to try to harvest our sunflower seeds this year. From what I understand now that I have cut them from the stalk, I can cover them with a brown paper bag for a month or so until they harden and fall off. Another adventure and learning experience that I welcome.
With Michaelmas passed, it reminds me that this time of year is one of death and renewal. Facing our dragons and moving forward with bravery. It is my favorite time of the year and I always feel a readiness inside to begin again when Autumn arrives.